As you know, I asked Jesus into my life when I was fifteen years old. I was the first person in my family to become a Christian. My world flipped and just like that I went from despair to hope, from purposeless to passion, from feeling unloved to holding a love cup overflowing with God’s love for me.
Although I was growing in my walk with Jesus, I still had sin issues. As a new Christian, it was very hard for me to control my BIG mouth! My Dad ticked me off. He was mean and unfair.
Often, when I spent time in God’s word, He convicted me.
In my heart, I’d hear Him say, “Susie, you have me, Jesus living inside of you. You are not allowing me to shine.” The only Jesus my family saw was in me.
Oh, I struggled because, in my pride, I felt justified for my defiance and conducting a hollering match with my Dad.
I remember one night dragging myself out of my room to apologize to my Dad for yelling at him. It was HARD!!!
I did not want to do it – my PRIDE and big mouth were sin – this I knew. I had a choice. I could ignore God and get a hard heart, or obey Him and experience freedom from sin. Bottom line, I didn’t want sin to remain in my heart. I wanted to obey Jesus.
So, I got to the living room, spotted my Dad sitting in his favorite chair and sheepishly spoke, “I’m sorry Dad for not respecting you.”
My Dad’s face was first confused; then it lit up with a BIG smile. We both laughed, no longer mad at each other.
It was a battle in my heart I fought for years, in fact, sometimes I still fight that battle. But, through the years, God has worked in me. As I obey Him, He works calmness and patience into my heart.
He is so faithful!
Here are some verses for my sweethearts today:
Phil. 1:6 “And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.”
Romans 5:3-4 “We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation.”
Because I love you,